Sadness, exhaustion and stess Nov 13, 2015

This isn’t what I planned.  I will check in here briefly, but it will not be a normal post.  I realize this is the TTOT, and there is lots to be thankful for, but it must wait for a bit.  I had the post planned in my head.  Cute pictures, happy days, and lots of fun to bring up the spirit.  Then today happened.

I am sort of sorry for those that have already posted.  With such sad news out of Paris, it is hard to come to talk about a normal day or a normal week.  My heart and prayers go out to those in France.  There is so much we don’t know, and I dread hearing people giving all their “expertise”, especially with election news in the forefront.  I don’t want to hear whose fault this is, other than the people that cause this tragedy.

Maybe my sadness for the events in France are probably heightened by exhaustion.  Today, my dad was taken to the hospital.  It wasn’t easy.  I had hospice telling me that he was just shutting down.  I tried to explain that, no, he had a UTI and needed antibiotics.  Thanks to my caregiver that stayed on top of it and helped me to insist that he be taken to the hospital.  He is there now, but the trying to get him the medication he needs without getting into drugs that are not good for him.  At the first sight of anything, hospice seems to want to start morphine, when tylenol will do.  And morphine will actually make things worse.  So, I must take care of that situation.

I also am being pulled in another direction.  My daughter is trying to move to Oregon with her baby, and her boyfriend.  That leads to sadness for me.  And now her car needs fixing.  We have taken it to one place, but have to take it to the dealer tomorrow.  There is not much time, as they need to leave next week, so everyone is stressed out.  And the money just to move is hard to come up with, let alone paying for broken down cars.

My sister is thinking of coming down with all the things going on with my dad.  That could just add to my stress.

so for thankfulness:

10) glad there were not more casualties in France.  I hope and pray things are better there tomorrow by the light of day, but I will continue to pray for those that are in the midst of chaos.

9) glad to see my daughter excited about her future

8) looking forward to seeing a son.

7) glad I will only have to work part time next week

6) glad I have complete strangers out there that are reading and will be nice to me.

5) glad I have a job

4) glad that there are sub rules to the TTOT that I don’t even know, and I may make up just to finish today.

3) glad I have a warm comfy bed just waiting for me.

2) glad for people, like my caregiver, that go above and beyond.

  1. glad  i can stop.

I hope and pray that you all are well and getting through the week.  Hopefully next week, I can leave my thoughts and quotes that I had up my sleeve for today…but today happened..


10 thoughts on “Sadness, exhaustion and stess Nov 13, 2015

  1. herheadache

    I can’t sleep, hoping for sun to shine soon, but realize that won’t happen for those who lost their lives in Paris.
    I am glad this TToT is here, as it helps.
    Sorry to hear about your father and glad you have someone who can help you get him the care he needs.
    Take care.


  2. Cyn K

    Rather than trivializing the events in Paris, I think identifying that for which we are grateful is a powerful tool for good. It means we appreciate what we have and are thankful to be alive. I think now it might be more important than ever to show gratitude. There’s little we can do to change the tragic events, but by giving thanks we put evil on notice. Terrorists will not rule our lives. We will remember to appreciate the small things because we never know what may happen next.


  3. Lisa @ The Meaning of Me

    Just said this to Erin on her post, but here to you as well – anything we can muster in the weeks and moments when we struggle is a huge victory. Your last one was expert use of the SBoR/BoSR!
    Hang in there and keep looking forward to the little joys!


  4. christine

    Oh heavens, what a week you’ve had. I’m glad you were able to find the good. I hope it helped you feel a bit better.
    I’ll be praying for you and your dad and his caregivers.



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